December 1982

 if you could just read my mind and my heart

i remember that you once played a part in my young
heart and mind, though only a short while 

and that was only yesterday.

and now, if i could only ask you stay with me for a while 

and then look at me and hope that you would

remember that you knew me, though

ot the girl you once loved.

if you could only read my mind as well as my heart that you came back, 

but very much deeper than yesterday. what made it deeper

because yesterday i did not know what "hurt' means. 

and now i know the painful meaning 

of the word.

if you could just read my mind and my heart how i'm hurt when i realized 

that i like you more than what you think - an ordinary longtime

friend of yours.  perhaps... i don't know what to say. 

i honestly say, i'm really hurt and keep on asking why did time still allowed you 

to come back again in my heart and mind, just to realize that you'll 

be very far from me because you're leaving. but even if you're

not you would still be mine but still only in dreams. 

how i wish you could read my mind and my heart that i really don't want you to go,

that i want you to stay here and show me just your smiles. 

but if you could, you would still go.

and the emptiness that you'd be leaving behind had started to strike in every corner 

of my mind and heart. it really hurts me to see you go and i don't know

if you would be coming back, if i would be seeing you again.

but why did time still allowed you to come back? if i ask you why, 

you would not know. if you could just read... 

perhaps you would know that it hurts 

me to see you go.